I am realizing now that I should have paid more attention to Peter Parker’s Uncle Ben. You know, “With great power comes great responsiblity.” I could lose the things I worked so hard to gain for being irresponsible. You see, I hold a position not usually held by people my age. They saw potential, that’s why they gave it to me. But for some reason, my performance’s fluctuating and, I think, slowly going downhill.
I just want to cry, but that would just depress me more.
I used to be this ball of sunshine — full of energy no matter how long I’ve been working or doing something. I could stay up all night and not feel sleepy at all the next day. No matter how wrong my schedule may be.
But lately, for months actually, I have been feeling so tired or sleepy. Every time I see my bed, I just have to crash and dream. And when I fall asleep, it’s hard to wake up. Yes, John Mayer is right. Waking up is the hardest part. But I don’t see why it has to be! It’s so frustrating. I have been going to work late. I’m always getting sick, thus, I’m almost always absent. This is not me.
I’ve been trying to take control, but I’m still stuck. I wish to get out soon of this place where I am. I feel like I am self destructing. But no, I’m not going to let that happen. I have to br myself again.
Happy birthday @makipulido from your @GMA_BP family! @gmanews (at GMA Network Center)